Christmas Memories!

Well, it is almost Christmas again!  Where did this year go?  I vowed that I would make this a joyous Christmas, although last year that is not what I was thinking.  And wouldn't you know that something happened the other day that brought back really bad memories of an episode that happened one Christmas when I lived with "Satan"!  Satan was an ex-roommate that went pyscho on me and almost killed me in my own kitchen a couple of months after Christmas.  I should have seen the precursor of violence that Christmas and even all the way back to summer.  Things had happened that should have cued me in to that behavior that was building in this subhuman individual. 

Satan and I had gone all out that year, buying a beautiful live tree and all the trimmings.  We both worked as home health nurses.  I came home one afternoon to see the tree had already been put up and decorated.  Of course, I was a little disappointed that I wasn't involved in the decorating and voiced my opinion about it, diplomatically, I thought.  Satan went into a rage and took the tree out the back door, threw it across the yard, breaking many ornaments and tree limbs.  I was so appalled at that behavior and, of course, later he was all apologetic.  He even brought the tree back in and tried to re-do it, but it was not the same.   Nothing was that year; I seemed to have bad luck every time I turned around.  I was being isolated from my own family, slowly and methodically, and I was not even aware of it.  The next February, the whole volatile situation would come to a head!  That is a whole other traumatic story!

Now that we are all good and bummed out, it is off to do my care giving work at my mom's!  Thank God for that yard!  It is my sanctuary and, even now that it is almost wintertime, is the most beautiful place to be! 

Changes Are Evident!

You know, it has been over 2 months since I last wrote; still drinking wine moderately, but haven't had any beer since I posted last.  Haven't missed it at all!  That was one expense we could live without!  Now my husband is on the wagon and so far, so good!  Hope he keeps up the good work!  He doesn't seem to mind my moderate wine consumption, so we'll see how this works out!  It never did last long in the past; I would let my guard down and then...you know the rest!  So I have been really hard-hearted toward my husband even now because I am so afraid he will fall off the wagon once again!  His last "bout" with alcohol scared him; he thought he was going to die!  The Lord does work in mysterious ways, all right!  I will just continue to go to my mother's and work on her yard diligently as always!  It is my sanctuary!  It is looking so beautiful lately; the Lord has blessed us with some pretty good rainfall lately.  I even bought a rainbarrel to put under the gutter downspout.  It is really working out well for watering my sister's memorial garden!  How very beautiful that looks now.     

Changing my life!

Well, you just never know about how close you are to death until you see your blood pressure through the roof!  I thought I was actually going to stroke out!  Anyway, I decided that to remedy that situation, I will choose natural ways of bringing that hypertension down to a more normal reading.  I do not believe in prescription drugs so I have made a few changes.  Losing weight was not a priority on my list but I have been working very hard in the yard and getting a lot of exercise, eating less, and drinking less alcohol.  I try to concentrate on drinking a lot of water, especially when I work!  Also, an important point:  stop letting things get to me so much!  It is not worth it!  I was dwelling on every little irritant and it certainly showed up.  I have been feeling much better now, but there is still a lot of work ahead. 

Birthday~!

Today is my 60th birthday.  I really don't feel very festive.  I actually am quite depressed.  Hinted around about eating out but the weather is too nasty.  I really don't care!  I decided to use up the left-over turkey to make tetrazzini.  It's done but the hubby decided he had an upset stomach and doesn't want to eat right now.  How is that for a kick in the head!?  Had to cook on my b-day and don't even want to eat it now.  Oh, well, whatever the French always say@!