Issue of Weight

I guess that I have a weight problem; oh, heck, I'll admit it, I have a weight problem. I love to eat; I tried so many times to lose weight by exercise and sometimes diet, but the word"diet" just makes me hungrier!! I have lost weight in the past just by being extremely busy and active, but if I ever strayed from that lifestyle--boom! Here comes the fat! When we were children, we were always told to eat everything on our plate, even if we didn't like it. Now...I like everything on my plate! I have tried so hard to be moderate, but there are those cravings. And...on top of that, since I can remember, my mother has told me that I was born overweight. Now that is a stigma that has gone on for 50-something years and I guess that it is ingrained in my psyche! Maybe that is a poor excuse, but I have never, ever been a small person. Even when I was smaller, I was no size 0! There is so much emphasis on being slim to the point of anorexia or bulimia for some women! How can that be any healthier than eating what you like? When my husband and I met, we were both a lot thinner, but now not so thin. However, he is trying to lose weight and I don't want him to be thinner than I am!! I can't seem to find a happy medium for this problem and I am a healthy woman, but not a comfortable woman. I have considered many different things, including stomach stapling, lipo, tummy tucks, etc. The list is endless. I sometimes pray that the Lord does not let me live too much longer, if this is what I am to endure. I can't imagine being fat and old at the same time.